I think a lot of people deemed me stupid because of what I had done with regards to you. Once in a while, it crosses my mind how I did not give myself the chance to know you better before I decided with finality that you will not be special to me. When you had given up on me and I had known you more, that's when I realized that maybe you could have had a chance after all.
I did not expect that you will show me that special attention when there were a lot of other girls around you who craved for it. I got scared and I did not want any more complications because I was already entangled in many. Looking back, if I actually gave you the chance and if I had been with you, everything would have been a lot less complicated.
But sometimes you can't tell your heart whom to choose. Even if the world actually thought that I would have been better off with you. The thing is, I still chose something that I cannot fully have.
You were the first person who told me, straight to my face, that I was in love with him. You had told me time and time again to let go because I'm just putting myself in a hopeless situation. I'm sorry that I'm simply a stubborn girl who refused to listen.
I just wish that you had already forgotten that time that you felt something for me. I do not want to know that it actually pains you every time you see me cry because of him. The last thing I need right now is to know that I'd hurt you and I'm hurting you still.
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