Saturday, September 27, 2014

That Nina Song

Do you remember Nina? She's a Filipino singer. She's one of the people who made acoustic music a big thing in the Philippines.

Well, she has this song that keeps on playing on my head whenever I feel that emotion that the song is all about. It's a song about one of the seven deadly sins. That thing it's talking about, it's not my favorite sin, but because of you, lately I've been doing it. 

I don't like that feeling, and I get upset feeling that way. But you know what's more frustrating? Me getting upset and you not doing anything about it. So, I just suck it up and pretend that I don't care.

And the song goes something like this:

Jealous of the one whose arms are around you
If she's keeping you satisfied
Jealous of the one who finally found you
Made your sun and your stars collide 

That Nina song... it's called "Jealous."

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Snow

Falling, falling, falling
Forming my uniqueness in this cold

Falling, falling, falling
Melting partially due to inconsistent warmth
Changed by coming together and separating

Falling, falling, falling
Will you allow me to fall to the ground
Or would you catch me on your palm?

Friday, September 19, 2014

Gaia and Luna

Being pulled by your gravity
Perpetually orbiting you
My movement affecting your tides

You only see one side of me
The other, forever hidden
Always borrowing light from a greater source

Will be going on and on in circles
Near each other, but could never touch
You are my Earth, I am your Moon

Monday, September 8, 2014

Vodka

I raise the glass to my lips and allow the transparent liquid go down my throat. It tastes bitter but I guess what I'm feeling is worse. I try to physically distance myself from you because being right beside you would just intensify the pain of the fact that I can't have you.

I drink the vodka that our so-called friends pour into my glass to wash away my pain. They just keep on pouring drinks, oblivious to what's going on between us and what runs through our heads. You drink from your glass as well, but if for the same reason as I have, I don't know.

As the rim of the glass reach my mouth, I try to avoid your eyes. I'd rather concentrate on the warmth that the drink gives me than feel the heat of your gaze.

But glass after glass, my inhibitions are lowered and my judgment is clouded. I just found myself alone with you, away from everyone else. I'm intoxicated by both the alcohol running through my system and the nearness of you. Maybe tonight, I can trick myself and allow me to believe that you're mine even for just one night.

Again, I taste the bitterness of the vodka, but my lips no longer touch the rim of my glass, but touching your lips instead.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Amp

Amphetamines are stimulants. They keep you up at night. They let you have a certain alertness. It increases the levels of norepinephrine, serotonin and dopamine. These hormones are the same ones that messes up your senses when you're in love. And I guess, that's what makes amp addictive, it gives you a feeling of euphoria.

But with every high, there is a downside. When the effects had worn out, you'll feel restless, irritable and depressed. Maybe that's what makes you long for it, so that you get rid of these ill feelings and get back the euphoric state.

As Bella is Edward's own personal brand of heroin, you are my own kind of amphetamine.

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Dream and Reality

I lay beside you
your arms wrapped around me
your fingers going through the strands of my hair
your lips pressing against mine.
I feel your love enveloping me.
But then I wake up
and I am alone
you are not beside me
and it's loneliness wrapped around me
it's tears kissing my cheeks and not your lips.
I feel this bitterness enveloping me.

Friday, September 5, 2014

Knight and Damsel

You slay my dragons of despair. You get rid of the evil sorceress who takes away my happiness. You bring down the tower that life has built around me. You take down each of the brick of failures and broken hearts. My sincerest dreams are locked away in a fortress, but you are there to set them free.

I will always be your damsel in distress, eternally to be rescued. You will always be my knight in shining armor, my eternal savior.

But like Guinevere and Lancelot, we are not meant to be together. You will have a king to serve, a fellowship to protect and a kingdom to honor. I am not meant for you and my love for you banishes me to solitude.

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Love and Matter

Love is like matter. It doesn't disappear, it only changes forms.

I know of a love that from solid turned into gas. As gas, you are not able to see it, but you feel it's properties. You even breath it.

I know of a love that from solid turned into liquid. You can't grasp it unlike before, but it follows the shape of what container you place it in.

I know of a love that has always been plasma. The heat coming from it is so strong, but unlike any solid, you can't have a hold on to it. The liquid of the previous one would either feign it or be its accelerant.

They say two objects cannot occupy the same space at the same time? If love is like matter, does this principle apply? Maybe it does. But I believe the heart has enough space to accommodate more than one form of love.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Earthworm

An earthworm is a spineless creature. It has no backbone, thus it cannot stand for you nor stand by you. It is soft, thus would yield to pressure.

An earthworm would always be an earthworm. It will not grow a backbone. It doesn't even have an exoskeleton, a pretense that is tough even if just on the outside.

There is no point in hoping for it to be a vertebrate. It lacks a backbone and it'll stay that way.

Monday, September 1, 2014

Just Walk Away

I am at a point wherein I'd like to take one of my stilettos, hit you on the head, spell out what you're missing, then walk away.

Two Kinds of Girls

There are two types of girls—the ones you grow out of and the ones you grow into. I really hope I’m the latter.

I just hope that you realize this soon, before I grow tired of waiting.

Blue Roses


Blue roses may be beautiful. Blue roses may amuse a lot of ladies, but still blue roses aren't real. There aren't any naturally occurring blue roses. People either had to dye roses of another color or to play with the genes of the plant in order to create blue roses.

There are white roses, red roses, yellow roses, pink roses, orange roses and even lilac roses that occur in nature, but there aren't any blue roses.

Don't give me blue roses; they're worse than paper roses for me.